Dumb colleague

Sometime last week, I was waiting for the lift when my colleague (the 28/ 29 year old one) also came out of the office to go home. I said “Hi” to her gingerly as we have not been on good talking terms and was deciding if I should start a conversation with her. However, I looked at her reaction and behaviour and I decided not to bother and I will not take the initiative. So we took the lift down some 30 storeys without talking and her standing just next to me. When the lift door opened, she walked out quickly and disappeared around a corner. I was completely flabbergasted.

Why?
Earlier on recently, we took the same lift and knowing we haven’t spoken a lot in recent months, I took the initiative to strike up a conversation with her and found myself up against a cold wall of ice. It’s different if the person is not apt at talking or is quiet but she was all ice. Her eyes were darting furtively and looking at the lift floor indicator, as if to see when the lift would reach the ground floor destination. And while I was talking to her, her eyes were trained in front, never once did she bother to turn to look at me. Now, I can read body language quite well and it was obvious she did not want to talk to me and then it was to her horrors of all horrors that she was taking the same lift as me.

The strange thing is whenever I see her and I am with my friend, she will just talk to my friend and ignore me and appear very friendly. Now I think that behaviour of this kind is very dumb. I know she is probably just trying to make me feel unwelcome and to show that she does not like me now but there is no need for this. I do not think I offended her and I cannot be bothered if she thinks I offended her. This is extremely dumb but after that incident in the lift, I told myself not to bother. If she wants the working relationship strained, note I say “working relationship”, not even “friendship”, so be it.

I am not even going to bother about asking her out for meals as previously my friend and I had a pretty bad experience. It was awkward and very superficial. I do not understand why a person can pretend to be so chirpy and chatty one minute and then later clam tightly shut and appear uneasy.

My first time... in a gym

I joined Fitness First recently and "burdened" myself with a hefty $133 monthly memebership fee. The consultant refused to lower the fees and I did a check among some friends and they were all paying the same rates. Well, the price of health and fitness. The good thing about it is that it's just opposite my office!! And the full membership allows you to use facilities at other clubs. Capital Tower and George St outlets have indoor swimming pool, whch is a very huge draw.

So far I have used the pool once and the gym machines such as the treadmill, bicycle, ab-machines, etc about once or twice only. Anyway I think I shall skip the treadmill and bicycle for awhile as my lower back pain came back after I did all those exercises. No wonder when I tried brisk walking, my back hurt terribly. Probably the lower lumbar disc is injured or weak.

Anyway my exercise plan now is to swim everyday before work. Hope I can persevere! The best part is that the bathing facilities (with shampoo, conditioner, bodywash, hairdryer, etc) and locker areas are clean and nice, just like a spa and there are people to clean up after you. Haha... Convenience and lazy me.

In addition, there are classes which you can attend at your leisure, so I tried out aqua-aerobics with my friend but we made an embarrassment of ourselves as we were laughing at each other, the gayish instructor and in the end we were kicked out of the class because we did not register in the first place. Haha. I also had my first personal training session (FOC) last week and my muscles ached the whole week! Was taught some abdominal crunches, some pilates moves and some thigh and butt tightening exercises. I probably won't keep to all, but I will try doing leg raises and abdominal crunches before I sleep at night to tone my tummy. And I must model after someone - that's my mum and my aunt! My mum lost some weight and is at her lightest in all her years while my aunt has quite toned legs and thighs after the treadmill and bicycle regime for almost 3 months.

I guess it's good to sweat and no more loose triceps flapping the air, no loose calf muscles or loose abdominal muscles. I must, I must, I must exercise!!!

Just tired

I am so tired I need a rest, a rest from it all.

Maybe a state of un-bother-ness is the best. Just like what is going on now.

Actions speak louder than words. No actions = silence.

Maybe sorry will do the trick but since I have spelt it out, it's of no more value.