Gone??

Gone are the days where we sat together and yakked.
Gone is the patience we gave each other to muse and ponder.
Gone are the times we went out with each other frequently.
Gone are the long hours we spent with each other unconditionally.
Gone is the understanding we had with each other's nonsensical complains.
Gone are the close friendship ties we had.

Gone.
Now are the days where we sit together and yak about the food.
Now is the impatience and pressure we give each other if anyone dares to muse and ponder.
Now is the time we only go out with each other on occasions.
Now are the minutes we count as we spend time with each other.
Now is the nonchalance we have with each other's nonsensical complains.

Now what exist - struggling friendship ties.

I struggle to hold things together but one hand cannot clap alone. Will I dare to make new friends? Will I want to? How long will these new friendships last? Will I get snubbed later on, as work, bfs or other commitments take priority?

I now function best, as myself, with myself.