Tired. Fatigue. Giving up.

I normally (try to) ask my gfs out during the weekends to catch up but this seems increasingly difficult due to our different work schedules and lifestyles and of course, changed characters. Some of them don't go out during weekdays or work late, so I can't ask them out then.

But I am tired. I am very tired of trying to check their schedules, plan places to go and confirm with her or them. What a waste of emails, sms, phone calls and planning.

If I ask one month in advance, sometimes they say can, sometimes really cannot, never mind. So I also ask 1 or 2 weeks in advance to arrange the dates and re-confirm later. If I do nail them down, it will be suddenly "Oh, I have something on." and I am like thinking "I thought I told you to keep this day free and I will re-confirm nearer the date??"

Then if I happen to just call them to meet up in one or two days' time, I am labelled "last-min". I only wanted to see if our timings can fit and we can meet up, if not, it's all right, cos it just might be I am going to a certain area or whatever.

Come on lah! Early no free, late no free.

No need to meet up lah. I am tired of such things. I GIVE UP.

I should just continue being a loner. (Which is funny, I used to think I was weird, cos I like to shop alone, don't mind eating alone and doing many activities alone. I used to go for classes in Uni alone WITHOUT knowing anyone. I thought I was a weirdo. Maybe I still am. But I don't care.)