Dead town with zombies

People say never to stay on in a company for the people. Go for your own dreams and aspirations. While that might be true, I can’t help but think if the reverse is true. Especially after my experiences.

I used to be bored with work as I have been at it for almost 2 years but I didn’t really hate it. The only things that kept me going were my fun colleagues and the comfortable, familiar environment. It was like an extended family which I came “home” to during my working hours. Company dinners, events and retreats helped many colleagues to grow closer and to get to know each other although many grumbled at having to spend time outside work going for it. On hindsight, it was fun and interesting.

Right now, I m not bored with work, well maybe slightly but I just find that this new place is like a dead town. People hardly interact, there is no WARMTH or COMPASSION. Initially, I wanted to be friendly and smile, say hi or acknowledge people to make a good impression but I found out it was useless here. Not many people responded. It’s a dead town with unfeeling zombies walking around. It’s abnormal. And I daresay I am one of the very youngest staff around. Heh. Granted, it’s more of a global culture with people of different nationalities and ages, yet there doesn’t seem to be any common company identity or unity. Some people in my team love to raise a big fuss over trivial matters, often administrative ones. Perhaps they don’t have enough attention in the office as people just come here to work and only work, work, work and then go off. No camaraderie at all. Maybe it's just my dept? Hmm...

It’s true that this happens everywhere but I guess I really know what I value more now. I want to stay in a place that allows me to develop myself and my career as the company grows, somewhere where I belong, not only for my usefulness or productivity but where I am respected as a person, for my abilities. I feel that when you are valued, you will put in more effort and not be so calculative. As for my present place now, I seriously do not know how long I can take it. I am trying real hard to adapt and try to change things or focus on positive stuff like at least I have 2 to 3 nice colleagues as allies but with not much growth or activities in this place, it’s a struggle. I do not know how long I can survive.