Why am I unhappy at work?

Here it goes again. Why am I unhappy at work?

It’s a Monday yesterday and Mondays are blue. I never had such bad weekly Monday blues before.

Monday is blue blue blue,
Yes, yes it’s so true.
I need some sticky glue
To piece the stupid clues.

I think it’s because I finally realized what I wanted to do. And that’s marketing communications. I want to help maintain/ edit the company’s website, help in doing up brochures or rather marketing collaterals. I want to proofread and edit newsletters and perhaps other related stuff such as helping to organize events, liaise with advertising agencies on production of these collaterals and maybe conduct market research. I foresee this role would give me some opportunities in interacting with internal and external “customers”. It’s still desk-bound but at least there is some scope for work-related interaction?

I am not bothered about interacting personally as I believe I am capable of making friends whether it takes abit longer to open up or whatsoever. I just want some interaction with work, about work. There doesn’t seem to be any at where I am now and it’s killing me. I just feel like a robot and somehow you don’t feel you belong. You are just a worker, the environment is so cold. I don’t want to come to work, work, lunch and then work again and go home without any interaction. Apparently this is the culture here, as my other colleagues who have been here for 1 to 3 years testify. I wish there was some interaction between departments. A minimal amount will do. Probably all our work need not rely on others down the “production line”. Yet I want to have colleagues, not strangers who come to work at the same place. If that is the case, I might as well work at home. Anyway I think my situation cannot be changed given that there are so different characters in my team and mostly so fake and selfish. I don’t even want their interaction.

So, there I have it. My answer. Job misfit and a work environment misfit. My values are being compromised.

I shall change and I will change. In His time.