my job hangs on a thread!!

I asked my director about my confirmation today. She apologised for the delay as she forgot and was away the whole of last week. Actually I only wanted her to give me the letter (and just give me the bloody letter!!) but she asked me a weird question.

She asked me if I was unhappy with the job here as she had feedback that I don't seem happy. Her main concern was if I was happy as she did not want me to quit after a few months and waste all the time or training she's gonna invest in me (if there would be any training after all). Well, I was caught off guard. Yet I do not think I don't look happy. I am just being grumpy, black face and irritated at times? Conflicts between colleagues do occur, yah. And I admit I have not been very nice to some of them at times (read: the admin woman & the YID). So I told her, NO, she and the other people who feedback are not right with regards to this.

I guess I didn't sound convincing enough.

She asked me to reconsider. Reconsider what?! This job? NO. I need this job (money).
Oops. Was I dumb in accepting her request for me to reconsider? But I was giving her face. Hmm..
I shall tell her I am not unhappy (even if I am, but life's never perfect) and ask her to give me the letter, the letter, the letter, the letter.

I am just an ice princess. Do not force me to smile. Especially when I face the computer.

I only want the letter, the letter, the letter, the letter and only the letter.