I need a new job

Finally.

I am ONE year old in my “new” company. I achieved my 12 months target. Yet my perseverance is dying out on me. Can I hold out for another year? I do not know. I know I will definitely hold out till December this year but after that? I may be lost. I am in wanting to run off but I am scared of what the future holds. I am petrified of leaving one boring environment and jumping into another similar one. However, I do know I want to switch to marketing or marketing communications, which is more in tune with what I studied.

Why do I want to leave so soon?

I am tired of the cold environment which I work in.
I am tired of having nothing to say to my direct working colleagues when I meet them at the lift lobby or in the toilet or even on the MRT. This is so even though I rack my brains for a topic or try some lame topic but to no avail.
I am tired of the feeling where “even if you die, no one bothers or cares” culture.
I am tired of sitting at my computer doing at most administrative brainless work.
Ultimately, I am tired of being surrounded by people I see for 8 hours everyday but are like complete strangers actually. That is scary.

Sometimes I wonder if I had made a wrong decision to leave my previous company but if I did not, I would never know what the outside world is like and what kind of values I hold out for in a job and my preferred working environment. A change and a new experience has spurred me on to list out all what I want in a job, namely the roles I play, the corporate culture and the
people.

I want a company where I can grow my career, where I feel appreciated, where the office is actually like another home to me. I want a family-like culture and helpful and friendly colleagues. Not all colleagues can become friends but I am sure there will be some. The key to long term growth is still people - this is what I learnt but such a painful and arduous lesson. I don’t care if I can’t take 2 hour lunches – I don’t eat that awfully slow! I don’t care if my freedom is restricted – if you like the environment you work in, you won’t feel restricted at all.

Sigh.

Trust in God and ask God for a way out and to give you your desired job with the desired work culture and people. Ask and He shall give. Yes, that’s my prayer goal. My time goal is 9 months (target May 2007) and I will start looking for a job actively come 2007.