Have been feeling pretty lost and down-spirited recently. Never felt this way before. It’s really discouraging, no matter how I try to cheer myself up or press on. I am so lost in my career quest and I seriously lost myself in knowing what I want to do and what I can do. I can’t see where I am going in my current job other than standard pay increases of meagre percentages each year. I guess I am also lonely in my organization.
Actually I don’t want to job-hop. I just want to find some place where I can stay long term and make friends or nice accommodating colleagues but I just can’t find it here. Recently I have tried applying for marketing, marketing communications or even corporate communications jobs but most of them did not call me up. Maybe I should apply for media/ editing jobs too. I may have exhausted the job market already by sending out perhaps 50 resumes in the past 2 weeks? Yup. Kind of aimless hitting wherever I can, whenever I can. I don’t want to hit aimlessly too but I also have no confidence especially after the previous interview. I don’t really know how my skills and experience will stand out since I am making a career switch to a more specialized role.
Sigh. Why? I don’t know what’s happening to me. Everyday I wait for my phone to ring, waiting for unknown numbers as they represent a ray of hope. No one seems to want me. I can only pray and hope and wait patiently but I am restless. I am fidgety. How do I find joy in God in my situation? I try to.
The waiting is horrendously painful and excruciating.
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