Pissing off week

It’s a pissed off week for me or rather start of the week. I was so busy last week and only left office at 7pm (which is very rare as almost everyone has already gone at 6pm sharp), so I was looking forward to this week. Had hoped that it would be free and easy but I was wrong. I was busy again… I mean really madly busy with no breather.

In addition, my past mistakes had snowballed and came back to haunt me. Suddenly there were like so many mistakes just uncovered and those cases were like early part of the year. Since no one knew it was a mistake, we kept using it, till the errors became aplenty. Of course, I feel it’s just minor billing errors but I know the US office will grumble if there are many adjustments to do. Then I was asked to explain how these mistakes came about. I racked my brains for 2 hours as I felt that a mistake is a mistake – even if I explained, anyone will just think I am trying to make excuses. And a mistake is already a mistake. Nonetheless, since an explanation was needed for audit purposes, I listed 2 to 3 important points as briefly as possible. I feel bad making mistakes but I really can’t bother to explain much.

Then today, my boss kind of reprimanded me over a task that I forgot to do and that is to allocate the commission of a few accounts to the sales side. Come on, 95% of the time I do it correctly and you want to condemn me over 5%. Sure, sales is super important but if the commission missing, it can be rectified; we will just have to ask US to allocate properly again. You can’t have 100% accuracy in this because the US may get it wrong, we may get it wrong or someone will dispute the commission should be spilt, etc. Anyway, it’s also my mistake but I really cannot bother explaining myself. Damn pissed over this because my boss implied I never do my job at all. She’s nice; but when she is not in her moods.

I don’t want to stay here any longer. It’s sickening. There’s no one to talk to and the boss only bothers about the sales team, granted they bring in the most revenue. The sales can have the perks as rewards but treat everyone fairly. It’s like even if I die the next day and don’t come to office, no one will notice or ask.

Would you want a working environment that the people only interact with you professionally and only 5% superficially personal?

I cannot wait for Friday.

I am desperate to jump ship. Give me a ship, quick!!