My daily lunch

I have a situation that I somehow cannot resolve. I have tried and I can’t really be bothered anymore, so I shall just leave it as it is.

The changes came gradually over a month ago but I took some time to analyze it and try to solve the problem after making sure that I was not being overly sensitive.

Well, it is like this, my regular lunch partner suddenly became very busy during lunchtime and would go off on her own without asking me or only sometimes telling me she’s got an appointment or whatever. She started to bring her own lunch to work often and if I noticed that I wouldn’t ask her out for lunch. Quite weird, considering that we have been lunching together daily for half a year. So I thought she was busy, on a special diet or wanted to be left alone and left it at that. After a few weeks, I felt it was really getting absurd so I started taking the initiative to ask her for lunch at least 30 to 45 mins before she scoots off.

It’s kind of pathetic as lunch has become quite boring after all with her. In the beginning it was not that bad as I tried to find out more about the company through her and she used me as a listening ear to complain about the people in the department. However, there is a limit to complaints and I felt it wasn’t very healthy. In addition, the complaints are always about the same old things. I supposed I got bored, maybe I bored her too. Whatever.

So this week I decided to ask her out for lunch again and I was slightly pissed off at her behaviour. We went to a café so we had to wait for our food to be served but because she ate sandwiches, her food came first while I had to wait for my food for a longer period of time. To my irritation, she started eating first and was not bothered about waiting for me. Nor did she politely say “Excuse me, I am hungry, I shall start eating first” or “Eh I very hungry lehz, I eat first ah!” She finished her sandwiches and cake within like 10 mins and I was still waiting for my food.

My food finally came and I felt ill at ease with her watching me while I was eating. I could see that she was slightly impatient but well, I can’t help it, the food came late. I tried wolfing it down the best I could while at the same time try to make conversation, which she did not. After going through a series of topics, remarks and opinions that I had pre-planned in my mind to make it a dialogue, I gave up trying to do so as there was less than lukewarm response such that it became a monologue!

I give up. Gave up. Given up.